Live Like We're Dying...

" Draw a Line.

&& Live above it."

Why do people try to be someone they're not? Why is there jealousy? Why are you trying to be me and when you can't you're trying to destroy me? Here's what I think;

Get.A.Life.

Okay... so I should probably explain... right? (I'm gonna use me for an example... not because I'm conceited. I'm doing it just because it's easier to talk about it from this point of view and you probably have the same problem.)

I watch people try to be like me. They try to wear there make up like me. Dress like me. Act like me. I feel like they're trying to follow in my footsteps and become JUST LIKE ME! Which isn't that big of a deal, but the truth is, you really can't live up to it. Every person is different and that's how it should be. You don't know what I go through, what my every thoughts are... and honestly I'm probably the most unpredictable woman in this world(or that's how I feel anyway.) So why do you keep trying? I believe it's a thing called jealousy... maybe I'm just fooling myself but that's what I believe it is.

Jealousy can be a hard thing to deal with. Her hair is long... I want that. That truck is sexy... why can't I have that? etc. etc.  Every day is a constant battle, but I'll give you a couple tips(this is how I deal.)

• One day I'll have my own.
• Count your blessings.
• that's not you.

I live my life like it's my own(probably because it is...duh.). As I've lived I never really cared what anyone EVER thought about me. They'd say mean things, I'd shrug it off my shoulders. I watched people around me get criticized because they weren't "sporty" enough or "skinny" enough, not "good" enough and while I was just a young girl I remember telling myself, who are you to judge me or others? You have no right.(or something like that.) So at that time I stopped listening to what others had to say... and It pretty much blew up from there. 

My Junior year in high school was when I really started listening to myself and not others. (I'd like to point this out because High school is critical to anyone going through that!) I started to  LIVE and not just go out and do stuff. I really went all out. My life was a straight out party. Going out, living life, dating, doing what I WANTED to do, and I don't regret a single minute of it. However, some people thought of me as a "slut" "rebellious" "bitchy" "hater" when the truth is.. these people didn't even know me and never tried to know me. Just because I was in my own little world doesn't mean I hate everybody or wont talk to anybody! I just liked being by myself, hanging out with other people... not the ones I've been going to school with since kindergarten. Not that they weren't the coolest people...ever... I just wanted something new, something different, something exciting and fun. And believe me... I got plenty of that.

I was rebellious in a state... but I never did drugs, drank, or stayed out Way to late. I lived, I learned, I grew... but I'm still growing. I'm still learning. AND I'M STILL LIVING!

I still do what I want, when I want. I do what I feel like doing, and I change almost everday. So why can't we all just live, learn, and grow? Why do we have to be like someone we're not? We are all beautiful in our own way so why do you have to be like me? I believe people who try to tear someone down or be someone they're not are some of the most ugliest, cruelest people in the world. And we all have to judge to some point... but why do we have to be mean about it? Rudeness is ugly. Kindness is beauty. And life is one big joy ride... so, no regrets, no pretending to be someone you're not, and just live, love, and be happy.

.peace.