Family won't disappear because of a fight

Sharp blade on the end of a five letter word, sliced through my back as tears stream my cheeks and all I could do was turn and walk away. Never thought it'd hurt like that. Never imagined I'd have my heart and my mind screaming two very different things. As I walked I remembered the time that everything was perfect. It was all good again and you were treating me like your best friend. By the end of the tears I had remembered it all. The fighting, the crying, the anger, and the times you would just avoid me. I remembered the laughs, the fun, the long talks, and the few times we just hung out. Now that we're older I noticed that the fun times have out grown the rough times, that we started hanging out like friends more than like brother and sister. Im sure you have realized by now, but that night hurt me, the words you used to tear me down to make yourself feel better destroyed me. Tears became puddles and my heart broke, but I gained strength to love you more. You may hurt, and feel like no one cares, but you know that is not true. My mind has told me multiple times that you will always use painful words when you have no one else to be mad at but yourself, but my heart tells me that you're my brother and I can't walk away. I can't turn my back on all the good times we have and I will always follow my heart. I wont walk out on you, no matter what happens. You know that you can't take back the words you say, but I am the one having to live with them. I think about that night everyday, and one day I will forgive you. Today I will live with the pain and we'll be friends once again, but sometimes pain like this does not disappear because you use the word sorry. Know that family wont disappear because of a fight. I will be here for you through everything, and I will always have your back, even when you're stabbing mine. I love you and nothing can change that, but that doesn't mean I can't be mad at you, at least for a little while.

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